Why I’m Disappointing So Many People

I’ve spent the last few weeks letting people know that I won’t be teaching 2 yoga classes anymore.  It’s one of those bittersweet moments for me.  I’m very ready to move on to the next phase of my life, but I’ve spent almost 12 years teaching these classes.  So, telling people that I’m leaving has been difficult at times, but there is a good reason behind it.

I knew that this separation was going to be difficult and I put it off for awhile for just this reason.  However, it was time to make this switch for me.

As a mom, I’ve spent so much time taking care of my family.  Although my kids might say otherwise, I think that I’ve done a decent job of it.  As a yoga teacher, I’ve spent the last 12 years helping people to increase flexibility, strength and balance and to even create more peace in their lives even if it is for just a few minutes each week.

Doing both of these for the past 12 years has been amazing!  I’ve met some incredible people that have permanently touched my life with their kindness, courage and compassion.  I’ve also learned from them as much as they’ve learned from me.  It’s been a good thing for a very long time.

So, taking this time to say goodbye to all of these people has been difficult for me.  Every time another person hears that I’m leaving, I’m disappointing them.  I feel it with each conversation.

Of course, I get asked why this is happening.  Well … it’s called change.  It happens to all of us.  Sometimes we are the ones to start the change in our life and sometimes someone else is forcing it upon us.  Either way, change happens whether we want it to or not.

I’ve known this particular change was coming for at least a year now.  Like I said, I put it off just because I knew that it would be hard for a lot of people.

However, I’m at a point in my life where I have to put me first a little bit more.  I’ve spent the past 12 years putting others first and it’s time to change that at least a little.  While, I’m not happy that I’m disappointing so many people, I’m really excited for the direction that I’m taking.  I’m developing a business based around something that I can truly believe in.  I know that I can still help so many people with their goals.   It’s just that the way that I’m doing it is going to change.

My life is always a work in progress.   You get a glimpse of this when I write these blog posts.  I don’t profess to know exactly where I will end up or even what path I will wind up taking.  I just know that my next step is to not teach these 2 yoga classes anymore.

In the yoga therapy that I do, the people that I work with are often trying to figure out their next steps in life, whether they are empty nesters or retirees or they just know that things don’t need to continue as they are.  I tell them all of the time, that I won’t advise them what they should do.  However, I will help them to connect to their own inner wisdom so that they can do what is right for them.

If I’m helping other people to follow their own inner wisdom, then it’s time for me to follow my own as well.  That’s why I’m disappointing so many people.  I’m really staying true to myself and following the next path that is right for me.

I’ll miss each and every one of the people that I know from these classes and since I’ve been there for so long, it’s likely many hundreds of people at this point.  I really look forward to seeing you again in one capacity or another.  It’s been a joy and a pleasure to teach all of these folks and I look forward to what is next for me on my journey!

If you’re missing working with me in a class, remember you can always schedule a private session with me.  Or send me an email at becky@beckywatsonyoga.com.  I’d love to hear from you!!!

Until next time…